DESPERATELY IN NEED

I am a young single mom expecting my second child. A few days ago i found out my boyfriend is having a child with someone else. I was stressed out, heartbroken, upset, angry and everything else. I was especially emotional because i am pregnant with his child at this moment. In my emotion, and anger i went to the police and made a report against him. I know that it was wrong but at the time I was not thinking straight. I dont know if you could imagine what i was feeling. So, my boyfriend was arrested and charged. I told the police that he had slapped me and threatned me. I now feel so wrong, this is going to tear my family apart even more. He is forbidden to contact me or our son, who at 4 years old doesnt quite understand but just cries because he cant see or talk to his dad. I know that this is my fault, and now my sons christmas looks very bleak. I was, and have been so stressed out since i found out the truth about my boyfriend, i am even fearing a miscarriage. I cant eat or sleep, and i want to do the right thing but i was told that if i recant my statement i myself will be arrested and charged with mischief. i do understand that the law has to take domestic situations very seriously but By forcing mandatory prosecution the children suffer, and there is almost no chance of the family ever reconciling because of the tension a prosecution puts on the partners. It makes it very hard to correct the mistakes we make in haste, and the courts could save a lot of time and money if they implemented something that allowed "victims" to be honest and not just forced through the system. Im sure they can tell what is a serious circumstances from others. For example in my case i dont even live with my boyfriend, there is no evidence except my statement against his. Please help me to resolve this and save my family anymore greif. I know that in a way i brought this on myself but i am so scared to go to the authorities now because i was wrong, and i dont know how they will handle it. I can not afford to go to jail and I don

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